Rushing · Through · Insanity · Skies

Haven't done this in nearly 2 years now. But im bored and pissed off

Are you dating the last person you made out with?
Yes

Why do you think people kiss with their eyes closed?
It'd be far too unnerving gazing at each other whilst kissing

Do you think you are a good person?
IAt heart yes. But it gets lost along the way.

Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most?
No. Why would i?

Do you think you could change for someone?
I am.

Have you ever made out in a library?
No

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Chatted to the missus

Was your last kiss sober?
I don't drink. So yes.

Do you like the person you are becoming?
I really don't know anymore. I thought all this therapy would make me a better person. I thought it would help in my relationship so i could understand my depression and mood swings. But it seems to go unnoticed. And there is always some solace in despair.

Are there things you can't live without?
Possibly. But i couldn't think of them right now

are you a morning person or night?
Night.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Yes

When was the last time you were on an airplane?
April time i think

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort?
I never have. I turn to noone.

Do you fall in love easily?
No. Fall in lust far too easily.

Would you kill a hobo for 100,000,000 dollars?
Yes. They are worthless anyway

What can't you wait for?
An easy life. Or death. Whichever is first.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Yes.

Do you get jealous easily?
Yes

How are you feeling right now?
Like fucking shit


Have you hugged someone within the last week?
Yes

Does anyone know your password besides you?
No. Been hacked way too many times


Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
Yes

Something you dislike more than anything?
People who whinge about depression and have no fucking idea. Pisses me off. I'm in no way the most depressed individual. But at least i am not SELF-diagnosed. And rather than whine about it, im doing something about it.

If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be?
The last fat fuck i dated.


Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
Yes. Generally when i'm around drunk people. It's their fault anyway.

Has anyone made you cry recently?
Yes

Whos bed did you last lay on other then yours?
Charli's

What was the last drink you had?
Earl Grey

What is bothering you right now?
Pointless arguments over pointless things.

What are you doing tonight?
Nothing. Might sleep early for once.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Nothing yet again

Did you have a good day yesterday?
No

How's your heart latey?
Troubled


Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes. But that is another story


How's your life lately?
Getting worse after getting better. No job now, pointless arguments with the missus, endless days of boredom... joy


Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine

What was the last conversation you had with someone & what was it about?
Noones business


Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Of course

Do you prefer fruity or minty gum?
Peppermint

Made out for more than a half hour straight?
May have done. Though i highly doubt anyone could. Talk about jaw ache...


Want someone you can't have?
I don't want anyone. I'm a good boy. For once.

Do you believe in young love?
No. Noone young knows what it is.

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
We shall see. I'd hope so

Who was the last person who texted you?
Charli

How many numbers are in your phonebook?
fuck knows

What do people compliment you the most on?
Hair


Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them?
No. It's uncomfortable. I prefer lips.

Is there anyone who calls you often when they are drunk?
No. Thankfully. Noone calls me. and i'd only hang up anyway

Someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now?
My love

Do you currently have a hickey? Where?
No

Anything you would change about your life right now?
Would rather like a nice job. would rather the last argument with my lady didnt happen


How was your day?
boring.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
I am this moment via MSN

Do you have a best friend?
No. Not after the last one...

Do you have unlimited texting?
yes

Are you a forgiving person?
No. I use the nickname VENGEANCE for a reason.

What's something you really want right now?
Be with Charli. Happy.


Does anyone have a crush on you?
I'd expect so!

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Cigarette


Do you have any piercings?
Ears, Tongue

Burger King or Wendy's?
Neither, preferably

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
I don't tell anyone anything.


What were you doing at 10:30 last night?
On this piece of shite

Are you listening to music right now?
Yes. Dir En Grey - Glass Skin

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
Girl. Shes the only one who does.

What is your current annoyance?
Emotions


Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Not scared, i just rather not feel sick.


At what age do you want to be married?
Never. Don't beleive in it


Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Many people. Its horrible. But i feel it's partially me distancing myself from hurt


When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty?
A long time ago.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an R?
Er.... *thinks hard* I think so... Yes i did!

What does the 5th text message in your inbox say?
Something about wha Charli did today

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
Of course

What's the wallpaper to your cellphone?
Me and Charli

When did you first get Myspace?
2001 odd

Which one of your cousins is closest in age?
Dunno, theyre all old


Do you miss anyone?
Yes

Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?
Of course, or they wouldnt have


Are you wearing socks?
no

Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
No

Are you comfortable with answering personal questions?
no. if they were too personal i wouldnt answer

Would you ever donate blood?
No.


Ever kissed someone who smokes?
Yes

Someone on your mind right now?
Was this asked?

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Not in the least

Who was the last person to sit on your bed?
Charli


Where were you at 2:02 this morning?
Sleeping


Anyone told you a secret this week?
No thankfully

When was the last time you bought something?
Yesterday

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Nothing

Does a cuddle make you feel better when you're angry?
No. It makes me angrier. I'd rather be left alone

What is the color of the thing you are sitting on right now?
Red


Who else is in the room with you?
Noone


Who did you last say I love you to?
Charli. The only one i do


Do you have trust issues?
Yes, for good reason


Who is the last person that commented/messaged you on myspace?
Who knows. Noone really does


Where were you last night?
here.


Look at your recent calls;who was your last call from?
Charli i'd imagine.


Will this weekend be a good one?
We'll see.





Well, sorry for that.

I wouldn't bother reading this, i'm just incredibly bored, so i'm searching for as many "which ... are you?" sort of tests.

( Fuuuuuuuuuuck! )

So i came online this morning for my usual downloading frenzy, downloading any JRock i can get my hands on, and what do i learn?

Bou has left An Cafe =(

...Which means absolutely nothing to any of you... But it makes me very sad.

Currently listening to a track from the new Marilyn Manson album uploaded on Myspace.

It's... suprisingly very good.

I used to be a huge Manson fan, but his last two albums are cack. The sound was too commercial, which didn't really suit him. But by the sounds of this song, the new album could mean hes going back to his darker, more industrial past, along the lines of "Antichrist Superstar"

Could be a good album indeed!

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

I'm actually having fun writing a Kazuo post for br_roleplay. I'll try getting it up shortly.

So. For easter Sunday, what did i do with my day?

I cleaned my room!

Oh yes. No going out for me!

It was actually enjoyable. I'm a bit of a neat freak.

Plus i have Dir en Grey's "It withers..." tour DVD playing, so it's all good!

( Cause everyone else has... )

In other news, i'm a real emo. I bought the new My Chemical Romance album today.

I suck so hard. But it's awesome!

Hell i know i don't live in the US, but still....



Unique much?

Firstly.

OMFG NEW HAIR!!!! YAYYYYSEX!!!!

I absolutely fucking love it! I have a single pic up on my Myspazz page, but it's at a shite angle (i blame Kevin) and it's nowhere NEAR as bright as it actually is. Serious to God, it's so fucking bright. I FUCKING LOVE IT!

Tis incredibly high-maintenance too. Which isn't helped by the fact i only have my mother's hairspray to deal with it. >< Shall have to get some hair clay when i'm not in debt with the bank.


Secondly... I still haven't really sorted the stuff out about Amy yet. I probably should. But i think i'll leave it till i stay with her in Londinium. I did actually call her tonight to sort out when i'm staying, but she won't know for sure until she's had her job interview on Monday.

*sighs* Guess it'll all sort out.

Thirdly. OH MY GOD. I saw Cradle of Filth's new album, Thornography, in HMV the other day and was in despair at my lack of cash. So i came home and had a little search around. After viewing the video for "Temptation" i decided to download the whole album until i can afford to buy it.
Oh my fucking gawd it's perfect. Cradle haven't really been at their best since 2001's Midian, but this album really tears them right back into perfection for me. I shall review under a cut.

( I masturbate over Thornography )

Okieeee... so i've already mentioned this to the two Sophies... but ima post anyway.

( Long boring blabber about my friend )

Well now that rant is over... Tonight i'm going to a gay club! Wheeeee! I could do with the attention really XD (Maybe my plan to infect the world with herpes can go forward after all!)

Ok, so when i worked at Custard (the hairdressing salon) a few years back i was really close friends with this girl called Kirsty. She was a bit of a ditzy girl, but we got on well, had a good laugh together and spent a good deal of time together.

I also got to know her mom quite well. She was a model, rather attractive, and in all seriousness probably the nicest person i have ever met. Also, her husband turned out to be a friend of my dad through business.

Anyway, i had no idea, but it turns out Kirsty's mom had been ill for some time.

And died of cancer last week...

...I feel really weird.

I feel upset, but i can't seem to cry. And i know i want to. Because like i said, she was the nicest person ever and it's so unfair that she's gone. I also want to cry because i don't have Kirsty's number anymore and won't see her for another week, when i get my hair done.

I have no fucking idea what i'll say to her when i see her. If anything to be honest. And i'm actually really annoying myself somewhat because i feel that i shouldn't be upset and that i shouldn't be talking about this, because it was my friend's mom and i feel guilty that i'm sitting here saying "boohoo i feel sad about this".

So i'm gonna leave it at that.

anbyrobanby: to be fair, if the film's on at stupid o'clock in the morning, it's hardly going to be fluffy <,<
Sjornn: Some films are. XD
AirSphinx: Oh, like "The Armpits of Sjorn's Mother"?
AirSphinx: That was pretty fluffy
Sjornn: Omg, my mum actually saw that...
Sjornn: She was looking. XD
Sjornn: lmfao.
Ajleonheart: XDDD
Ajleonheart: WIN!
AirSphinx: *DIES*
AirSphinx: ^_______________^
KoochiZibble: ... Oh, dear. XDDD

Ikura really does win at life XDDD

On another note, i ordered my first JRock CD of the net! Got Malice Mizer's "Merveilles" on order along with a huge poster. So i can totally jerk off to Mana when i'm in bed

AND OMG OMG I CANT FUCKING WAIT TILL EXPO. I HAVE SO MANY FREAKING PLANS BASED AROUND THAT WEEKEND ITS UNBELEIVABLE!!!!

AAAAAAND FINALLY I'M GETTING MY KYO HAIR DONE ON THE 10TH!!!! WHEEEEE

Well... it's 7:27AM and i've just emerged from an all-nighter! haha
Got chatting to the most awesome girl ever - Kat.

Really cheered me up after my recent spat of emo-ness.

AND worryingly i've become VERY Myspace now. Revamped my whole profile and everything. Worries me JUST how scene i'm becoming O____O

Well after another several days' break from the internets and not much else happens in my life. I think i spent the other day with James and not much exciting happened. But time passed, so i can't really complain too much. Went out yesterday to see a friend (who didn't turn up in the end) and saw Soph at work. Had a little chat and bought a film, Memento Mori. It concerns a girl who finds a secret diary detailing the life and relationship of two girls in Korea. To be honest, it was both good and shit. As an emotional piece it was fantastic. The way it carefully tiptoed around the lesbian relationship and showed the true frailty of love and emotions was simply brilliant. But as a horror movie it was shite. It didn't really contain any overly scary scenes, nor did it really seem to make sense.


I'll gladly watch it again though.


Watched said film at my best friend's house. She had a weird episode and wanted me to go over, so i did. Even though i had to go out into the middle of nowhere. Spent most the night doing fuck all in a giant shed. Started to watch Silent Hill - Which is fucking made of awesome - but being the knob i am i fell asleep with Amy. In my defence it had somehow come around to being 6AM. Had the most awesome half-day with her. And had i not wanted to go back home and say goodbye to my nan (who was staying at my house) i would have gladly stayed longer. But the strange thing is... I've always known than i loev Amy. I love her more than anyone else i can care to think of. She's helped me through a lot and we have so much in common it's scary. I don't know if it's just my loneliness or whatever but... I think i love her...


...I really suck. ;___;

Edit - OMG and i almost forgot!!!! HAPPY BELATED 23rd BIRTHDAY BOU!!!!! *molests*

Sophie did me the good favour of purchasing a few DVDs for me today. Visitor Q, When the Last Sword is Drawn and Survival Style 5+.

I only got round to watching Survival Style 5+, but holy hell that's a randomly awesome film! (Even if Vinnie Jones does play his usual cardboard cutout villain in it)

Also, i'm stupidly lonely again. I went out last night, but i got really bummed out and decided to go home early. Quite why i'm writing this is beyond me too, noone reads these things with genuine interest and indeed i hate listening to myself whine.

So i wont.